From my show this weekend, I have this one specific moment that keeps replaying in my head. There were plenty of laughs in the show, but I have this one scene on a repeating loop right now.
The lights flood over me, obscuring the audience’s faces. With a hint of a smile I maintain eye contact with my scene partner, waiting for the roar of the audience’s laughter to fade, ready to make my next move.
This is where I want to be forever.
Tonight’s show was so friggin good. Sold out house, and they were into to it from the start. Wall to wall laughs. I’m having a hard time sleeping now.
mandalorianmango said: So I'm about to do an open mic again. When did you lose the crippling nervousness that comes before going on stage?
Let’s see…I started performing professional improv show in 1999 and I threw up before every show until around…2007.
When I first started, I would get nervous before every show. Those nerves would convert themselves into vomit, sometimes literally seconds before I was supposed to be onstage.
Over the years, I gained confidence in my abilities but would still feel those nerves before the show and would still throw up. It got to a point where I wasn’t actually nervous anymore, but my body was like, “Welp, it looks like we’re about to do a show. I guess it’s time to throw up now.”
I remember one night before a stand up show, I told myself, “If I throw up tonight I’m NOT going onstage.” This was a lie I told myself to try to contain the vomit. Even though I knew I would perform no matter what, the lie worked and I didn’t throw up that night.
I slowly got better at controlling my nerves, sort of like an X-Men whose superpower was…not vomiting.